Worst. Date(s). Ever.

So thanks to my girl Kelly, at SFTC, for inspiring today's post about bad dating experiences, which I've oh so cleverly titled Worst Date(s) Ever.

I'm not going to go into full detail about anything really, just a glimpse into my past desperate dating life. Most of it makes me want to vom quite honestly.

Let's see, there was the Sadie Hawkins dance...I asked my date idk, maybe a month or so before. He was a cute boy that I worked with and it was fun. But I had this really bad habit of changing my mind on a dime when I was in high school (well, basically until I met my husband). So the morning of the dance, I decided I didn't like him anymore. Just like that. of course, I couldn't cancel, so I went. A couple friends came over before & I told them how much I DID NOT want to go but obviously HAD to. And I really don't remember a whole lot about it, except he did try to kiss me when he brought me home, and it was awkward and uncomfortable, and I made my friend call him the next day & tell him I just wasn't into him anymore. I KNOW. And let's not forget that we worked together!! So we never talked again. So weird. And btw- my husband is from the next town over from where I grew up (and this boy as well), and his fiance is also from my hub's high school. And I shit you not, about 2-3 years ago, we went to a friend's wedding, and at the reception, I sat down right next to this boy, not even realizing it was him. We eventually noticed each other and I turned my chair so my back was to him. But I did lay my hand down so he could see my beautiful engagement ring. Keep in mind, he never did anything wrong at all, I'm just a bitch. lmao

Hmmm let's go for 1 more...I live in a college town, where most students at this college are males who work on cars. (This university is like the largest ever for high-performance vehicle stuff & all that jazz...) There are very few high school girls that don't date at least 1 of these boys. These boys are known for going after young girls, and usually getting them knocked up too. Lovely, isn't it? And they come from all over the country, so then they get baby mama's and never leave. Someday, we will run out of oil change places for these guys to work. Anyway, I had a friend that met one at the mall, and about a year or 2 later, I, for some strange reason, thought I should share my number as well. (They only dated for about 7 minutes, so it was no big deal.) My friends & I called him Mad Muscles McGee. For a reason. Either way, I was like 16 or 17, and he was like 22 or 23, and waaayyyyy more into an under-age chick than he should be. We never even went on a date, I'd just see him working at Vitamin World, and he'd call me NON-STOP. NON-STOP. There's no real point to this, except to tell the world that a guy named Mad Muscles McGee was into me.


And trust me, there's much more dumbness in my past, these are just a couple times that may have a little humor. (I'll have you know I deleted at least 1 story while editing...do do doooo...)

Let's hear 'em- tell me your awful dating story (i.e. what you'll strangle your daughter for in the future if you ever find out she did shit like this.)


Is it weird that I typed in "bad date" on yahoo images, and Tori Spelling's pic popped up???

Being laid off really puts a damper on buying stuff.

So I am really unsure of how "temporary" my temporary lay off will be. I really haven't had any contact from the office to know what the heck is going on, but other girls are feeling pretty shaky as well, judging from their facebook status'. I didn't bother trying to get unemployment, bc with me having another part-time job, it just seemed like more trouble than it would be worth for only 3 weeks. But if I find out that I will not being going back to work next week, then I will be calling the unemployment office. Maybe I should just do it...it's not like I have anything else to do...ha!I still would like an amazing new camera, however that is dependent on my employment status. Boooooooooooooooo.I ordered Brynn the cutest high chair ever, it's a space-saver high chair from Target, here's what it looks like:The space savers are nice, bc they'll strap right to your regular dining room chair. I have a full size high chair from when Austin was a baby, but the pad was ruined in damp basement, and I couldn't get a replacement bc they don't make it anymore. Which was fine, bc it would take up too much space anyway. But Brynn's been eating solids for almost 2 weeks now, I've been feeding her in her bouncy seat, and she's flinging food all over it! So this purchase couldn't wait anymore, and Hubs will just have to understand. Not getting paid has made things pretty tight.I will take this time to show you some other things I either have, or want, from Target. I am OBSESSED with the Dwell Studio line!! First up, what I HAVE: my kids matching bedding. I searched EVERYWHERE known to man to find something gender neutral & fun for my boy-girl shared room and this is what they have:The tricky part was finding something sold in both a crib set, AND a toddler bed set. I also ordered 1 single window panel. I didn't want full length curtains bc I thought it would be too much of the same pattern, so I had my mother-in-law cut it and sew it into 2 valances, 1 for each window in their room. Painted the walls yellow, a friend had their names made to hang on the wall in different, but coordinating patterns & colors, and there it is. Bam!

Now, our lovely home is for sale, and when I move, this is what I'd like in my new bathroom:
Can't you just see it with purple walls? I've always wanted purple in my bathroom, but have never actually done. Or if you're really daring, black. Even green or yellow for more color.

And this is what I'd like for my new bedroom:

Love love love. I'd do gray walls, black bed & furniture...Fab. Love it.

I'm really finding new inspiration lately. With my house, clothes, everything. Now I just need a job to fund all of this....

Let's get perky!

Ok, so my Debbie Downer moments are D-O-N-E. I am contemplating taking a new direction in my life. For a long time, I have always known that my career as a RDH would not always be my career. I just don't see myself doing it forever. Never really have. Unfortunately, that also means I am stuck, bc there's else I can go to school for around here, without uprooting the fam, where I'd make as much, or more, money. So I've been thinking of other avenues to explore for my future.
Where's my head at now? Photography. Why? Bc it's cool, and I love seeing other people's professional images. And bc I was in a wedding this past weekend, where the photographers had none of their own creative ideas, and I chimed in for a few of them. (Hopefully, they come out good! Haven't seen 'em yet!) Other bridesmaids had ideas as well.

Anyway, I think it's something I could learn. And the initial investment seems it could be pretty low. Just camera & equipment. I could practice on my own kids, family, friends & their families...Just something fun I can do for awhile until I really start to learn some things & eventually take it futher...What do ya'll think?
So the first thing I need, is a good camera. I currently have a $200 point & shoot Olympus, that serves it's purpose, but clearly is a college camera & doesn't take professional quality photographs. Anyone have any recommendations for a good, beginner camera, preferably around $500, give or take???

With that, I'll leave you all with one of the most iconic images of the 1900's, btw, the nurse in this picture passed away this past week.

What a week...

Well loyal followers, I have much sad news to report.

I have blogged before about my somewhat turbulent relationship with my kitty, KitKat. Things had been pretty good with KitKat lately, he's been playing outside a lot, we've been giving him more attention...he's just been a happy cat lately. Unfortunately, KitKat was hit by a car Tuesday, in front of our house. I was not home, with friends planning a bridal shower, but my hubs heard a loud thunk, he thought it was thunder & looked outside. I'll spare you the details, but KitKat is no longer with us, and it makes me sad to say that he suffered; he did not die right away, and I so wish he would have. It's so weird not having him here. We told our son, and he took it well, just asked a lot of questions, and is occasionally saying that he misses him & he dreamed about him last night. I was downstairs doing laundry yesterday, and I turned around to go fill up his food bowl. And it was still full. I think I see him out of the corner of my eye sometimes. I open the back door, and expect him to run out...it will take some getting used to. Someday maybe we will get a new cat, but I worry that I'd never find one that put up with my kids! Austin would hit, kick, pull, punch, and KitKat would just sit there & take it. I can't believe he never bit him or anything, bc he probably should have. lol So RIP KitKat, we will miss you & never forget you!
The next morning, Brynn woke up at 5am and screamed her face off until 7:30. I was so tired, and upset that I've done everything I can for her, and still here we are...I cried with her for awhile.
And then shortly after she settled down, my boss called and my hours at 1 job were drastically reduced (initially it was "laid off" but I think I can get 1 day a week in) for the next 3 weeks or so, while we wait on another doctor to join our practice. I am not the only one this happened to, and honestly, from what I've heard I got a pretty good deal, bc at least I know I will get my hours back soon. I freaked out at first, and cried some more, but I actually thought about it, and I really don't have a reason to worry. I'll be saving a ton on daycare, which will help get us through. So I'm okay with that.

When it rains, it pours, I guess. Or around here, it makes tornados. lol We've had like 3 or 4 tornados these past few weeks. Crazy. Enjoy your weekends everyone! Gotta go!

Kim, you're as good as dead to me.

All I have to say, is I've REALLY REALLY REALLY been trying to see the bright side of the past 3 months of horrific Shoedazzle selections. Really. I just know in my heart that someday, Kim will see the light and send me some good shoes. The first 2 months, it was HARD to make a decision. Now, there's like no decision involved, I know I'm going to hit that little skip button & pray for better.
And this is the shit she sends me:Okay so this is not too bad, but I'm pretty sure I can find it hanging by the purses at JCPenney's for $12.99. So no.
And these are the ones of which we do not even speak:(I'm not even sure what this one is actually. But I'm pretty sure it involved killing nultiple animals.)
(Why yes, I visit the indian reservations quite frequently! Where's my turquoise owl necklace at???)

(This looks like the snake died trying to suffocate my ankle. And is therefore creepy. Sorry for all the parentheses, not really sure why I keep putting them...)

(Could've been a winner-IF IT WAS AVAILABLE IN MY SIZE!!! WHAT THE EFF KIM!!!)

Okay really now, I'm effing pissed. EFFING PISSED. Who would actually be caught dead in this crap? And now that my blood is starting to boil, I probably really would've bought that last pair. Why the hell would I get options that aren't available? That doesn't even make sense. I know I've done some ShoeFab bashing, but you know what?? If you can't beat 'em, join 'em. I may just join 'em, bc obviously Kim is failing me miserably. I can't imagine that anyone could possibly have gotten uglier choices then I this month. If you did, I feel terribly sorry for you, but please link me up to your choices bc MINE SUCKED. THE END.

I'm irritated. Like a diaper rash.

There are so many little things bothering me, I don't know where to begin. When I feel like I need to vent, or talk about things, I typically do so to a friend. Sometimes I feel like I have diarrhea of the mouth. I feel like sometimes I give a little too much information, about things such as my finances, the usual source of irritation, or somehow related; but I really can't explain my frustration without those details. Sigh.

So what am I so irritated about? Finances. Work. The usual. The go hand in hand. See, most people that work are like OMG, I am so glad I have a day off! I'm like why the eff am I off? I need to work. And you know, I really don't get too stressed about money anymore- my needs are met, at one point in time (before kids & hubs) my needs were NOT being met, and I was very reliant on my dad for awhile. I stressed myself sick. I lost a ton of weight, was told I was too skinny a few times (maybe not such a bad idea, ay??) and I just cried a lot. Life was not how I pictured it. The grass is always greener, right? But NOW, I went to college, have great family, Hubs & I DO have really good jobs, but I feel like we're ALWAYS either reaching so hard to keep it altogether, or we are thisclose to any idea of financial freedom, and then shit happens and we're back to square one. We've worked so hard to get to where we are, and my GOD we have come a long, long, loooooooonnnngggggggg LONG way. Our bills are always paid on time (except when Hubs forgets bc he does that sometimes....grrrrrrr) but we haven't gotten to where our WANTS are bring met.

Ok, so I've made 2 shoedazzle purchases this year. Whoop-de-doo. I've bought 2 new shirts this year. Exciting. Still haven't gotten new jeans. Still wearing the ones I wore before pregnancy. And wore them through my entire pregnancy too, so they're pretty flattering at this point. Did I mention I've gained 20lbs, so nothing even fits me? I'm a hot mess. And I would like to say, that I do not mean to complain; I am so thankful everyday for what we CAN do. Is it selfish of me to want more? We deserve it. We deserve buying some things here & there. We deserve that family vacation. We deserve to go to the movies if we want to, go out to eat if we want to, take the kids to the zoo without planning it for 2-3 months. Know what I mean? It's just frustrating sometimes.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Now, more importantly, Hubs has to go on a bachelor party tomorrow. Which means he will be useless to me all weekend. Awesome.

Weight, weddings & why I don't like either of them...

I have the day off. Which most people love, however I do not. Bc I love money. And I don't make any by being at home. Blaaahhhhhhh

My Shred is not going so swell, I don't think. I sustained a minor injury last week, bc I didn't do the neck circles in the warm-up. They make me super dizzy and I want to vomit. I paid the price the next day when I couldn;t turn my head to the right. My neck was in bad condition. So I took a day off from the shred. I also took this weekend off; Saturday, bc I had to go to a bachlorette party, and Sunday bc it was WAY too hot in the house to be working out. I worked up a sweat just walking around. There was no way Jillian was going to pull me in that night. So I have 5 days until a wedding this weekend. I wonder if anywhere around here sells Spanx?????

And truthfully, I do see a little (small) difference with the shred. Unfortunately, as I've said before, I will not change my diet. If I lived off of lettuce and plain grilled chicken, I'm sure there would be a significant change. But I really like cookies. And cookies like my mid-section. I can't break that up!!

And is it bad of me, to not care about weddings anymore? Like, mine's done, so I'm over the whole wedding thing. I haven't even tanned for this one. At all. I'm at least getting my hair done tomorrow, so that's a plus. Weddings are just highly overrated, but everyone wants one. I tell people all the time, if I could do it over again, we'd have gone away somewhere nice, and done something very small, just us. That way, we'd have saved THOUSANDS of dollars, and we'd have gotten a honeymoon. Hubs & I have never been on a vacation together-EVER. So it's pretty disappointing. It's even more disappointing, bc the reasons why we didn't do that in the first place, was so our families could be there (they couldn't afford to travel, specifically, my dad, who didn't even go to the reception. Which I found out AT THE RECEPTION.) There was a lot of things about my wedding that I went out of my way to do for others, instead of doing things for myself, and those people didn't even care, so to me, it was just a bunch of hurt feelings & wasted money. I'm thankful for my marriage itself...and I did get some really nice pictures (which I could've gotten nice pics somewhere else too.) Have I ever talked about how my cake was the wrong color?? Agh don't even get me started.

What is your attitude toward weddings? Are you over it too if you're already married? or am I the only mean person in the world???